Pushing through

bringing all of this back up is making me anxious and paranoid.  I know we're past this and everything is fine but I still have this uncontrollable urge to go back  to the pasword recovery software again and start checking.... maybe I'm not because I don't have the energy for what I might find, and I just have that gut feeling that I'm overreacting...     Have to get this guide done before I start having wine for breakfast.